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The First Trimester

It feels like a dream to even type in the title for this blog post. I've dreaded journaling anything about this trimester because of so much fear and doubt in my mind that it would be too good to be true. I don't know how I've been so lucky…

The Day We Found Out

I was 10 days late and in complete denial because I have been 10 days late before, and the result was always the same. My mom, ever so aware of my cycle's patterns and schedule, kept calling me and asking me if I had taken a test yet. "No,"…
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Our New Years Announcement

I am currently 15 weeks and four days along. We found out about this news only about two weeks before our scheduled IVF appointment. I don't understand why we needed to wait two and a half years to get pregnant, or why we were able to get…
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Our Infertility Journey

On reflecting back on everything that's been happening on this journey, I decided to write out my timeline of all that it has happened before getting pregnant. Writing this out was actually more of an emotional and humbling experience than I…
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When life gets too hard to stand, kneel.

You know that feeling when your throat is tight and you are trying to hold back tears so you keep coughing and blowing your nose trying to disguise your desire to burst into tears by a fake cold? That was today. Today was a rough day. I may…

Just a Little Life Update

Life is oh so good right now. I haven't written on here in a while but I wanted to let you know that we are doing really well and are really happy. I had received a lot of feedback and concern over my last blog post, and I want you to know that…
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Worthy of Love

Guilt and worthiness. I have struggled with these feelings for as long as I can remember because of my perfectionism, fear, I don't know. I know I am supposed to "learn" something from this infertility trial, but I feel done. Because I continue…

The Story Behind the Diagnosis

First of all I want to thank everyone for their kind words and support after my last blog post. I can't even tell you how much it meant to me! This next post describes the background about the health problems that are contributing to my fertility…
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The One Year Mark

As of today, Dallin and I are "officially" dealing with infertility, diagnosed with infertility, or whatever you want to call it. Infertility is officially defined as not being able to get pregnant despite having frequent, unprotected sex…
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I guess I am one of those people who cries in church now... a lot.

At church a couple of weeks ago I was doing fine.  I was enjoying the talks and feeling good and motivated and humbled and all of the feelings. And while I find it frustrating when people so very vaguely refer to their "trials," I will do the…