I am currently 15 weeks and four days along. We found out about this news only about two weeks before our scheduled IVF appointment. I don’t understand why we needed to wait two and a half years to get pregnant, or why we were able to get pregnant without any medical intervention after trying so many things. But we are extremely grateful for this chance and also incredibly nervous about being parents. After going through multiple doctors, rounds of medicine, and progressively more invasive treatments it seems such a sudden thing to happen after we had decided to take a break from the effort.
In some ways, it’s made me question what I’ve gone through over the past couple of years. But I did struggle, as real a struggle as anyone else. I’ve learned empathy, as someone who also felt the two-edged sword of emotion that accompanies someone else’s pregnancy announcement. On one hand, joy and happiness. On the other hand, an immense sadness at my own condition and inability. As one of my favorite infertility bloggers said, “Pregnancy news comes with so much joy but equal sorrow for those who are still awaiting their happy beginning. Please know I love you so much. Just as I have been there, I am here for you.”
Infertility is a part of me and a part of who I am. These last few years have been the hardest of my life. I have never cried more or been brought to my knees more. But I know I have a Savior who has walked it all with me and who has carried me. I know He is there for all of us no matter what we are going through.
Thank you to all of you for your prayers. They have strengthened us and we have felt surrounded by so much love and support. We are excited for this next adventure, and June 27th can’t come soon enough!
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