Entries by Emma

2019 Reading Challenge

52 books in one year This year I made a lofty reading goal for myself: 52 books in one year. Honestly that’s a huge jump since I probably read like 10 last year, but I know that I can make the time to do it. The amount of unwinding with Netflix can definitely be replaced […]


The First Trimester

It feels like a dream to even type in the title for this blog post. I’ve dreaded journaling anything about this trimester because of so much fear and doubt in my mind that it would be too good to be true. I don’t know how I’ve been so lucky to have gotten this far, but […]

The Day We Found Out

I was 10 days late and in complete denial because I have been 10 days late before, and the result was always the same. My mom, ever so aware of my cycle’s patterns and schedule, kept calling me and asking me if I had taken a test yet. “No,” I answered, “not yet, but I […]


Our New Years Announcement

I am currently 15 weeks and four days along. We found out about this news only about two weeks before our scheduled IVF appointment. I don’t understand why we needed to wait two and a half years to get pregnant, or why we were able to get pregnant without any medical intervention after trying so […]

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Our Infertility Journey

On reflecting back on everything that’s been happening on this journey, I decided to write out my timeline of all that it has happened before getting pregnant. Writing this out was actually more of an emotional and humbling experience than I thought it would be. I’m stronger than I’ve given myself credit for. April 2016: […]



Dear blog, I haven’t written on you for 10 months. How is that? Yet, I have so many drafts I have written and not published. And I feel like hitting publish on a lot of them because vulnerability is power and empathy is what makes us human and if we aren’t willing to be human then […]

When life gets too hard to stand, kneel.

You know that feeling when your throat is tight and you are trying to hold back tears so you keep coughing and blowing your nose trying to disguise your desire to burst into tears by a fake cold? That was today. Today was a rough day. I may or may not have cried in the […]

A Continuing Education

I am currently a teacher to all of the women in our church congregation – also known as a Relief Society teacher. And to be honest, I really love it! It’s amazing how all of a sudden in my life Relief Society is a like a lifeline, and being out of town and missing church […]

A weekly letter

Yesterday my Aunt Sarah called me and said, “you know what you should do? You should  act like you’re on the mission again and just write a weekly letter on your blog!” Well that’s definitely the encouragement I needed because here I am! Cari amici, (dear friends) These last few weeks have been absolutely amazing […]

My Up and Down Relationship with Blogging

I have such an up and down relationship with blogging. (As you can tell by the scarcity and randomness of when I post.) So often I have the urge to write, to type and type and not be able to type the words fast enough to get them out before I forget them. I have […]

Just a Little Life Update

Life is oh so good right now. I haven’t written on here in a while but I wanted to let you know that we are doing really well and are really happy. I had received a lot of feedback and concern over my last blog post, and I want you to know that I don’t […]


Worthy of Love

Guilt and worthiness. I have struggled with these feelings for as long as I can remember because of my perfectionism, fear, I don’t know. I know I am supposed to “learn” something from this infertility trial, but I feel done. Because I continue to come to this realization that deep down I feel like it’s […]

Little Seeds

This is Prince and Mary Jane. We met when I was a missionary serving in Mestre, Italy – a city right outside of Venice. Sorella Gillette and I found them when we were trying to track down a member of the ward there and it turns out they were all splitting rent and sharing an […]


Objectively Cute Husband Goes to Tokyo

Honestly this is more a story about how Joe Jonas slighted my honor, but we’ll get to that. Hello, it is I, the objectively cute husband of Emma. This is my first guest post and hopefully I’ll be invited back! (I never know). I recently took a spur of the moment trip to Tokyo. The […]

My Number One Trick to Staying Focused at Work

I currently work from home and I seriously struggle with staying focused. I get so distracted by my stinking iPhone and my adult coloring book and Spotify and podcasts and mostly food.  It gets ridiculous and my brain goes crazy. This week I knew I needed to buckle down though because I have a lot […]

The Story Behind the Diagnosis

First of all I want to thank everyone for their kind words and support after my last blog post. I can’t even tell you how much it meant to me! This next post describes the background about the health problems that are contributing to my fertility difficulties. OK so getting engaged is really what kicks off this […]


The One Year Mark

As of today, Dallin and I are “officially” dealing with infertility, diagnosed with infertility, or whatever you want to call it. Infertility is officially defined as not being able to get pregnant despite having frequent, unprotected sex for at least a year (mayoclinic.org). I never thought I would end up saying this, I never thought […]


Mother’s Day

I love Mother’s Day.   I think it’s a wonderful day to celebrate womanhood and the vital influence of motherhood in our lives.  It’s a time that the world takes a moment to pause and say that motherhood is important and recognize how our society would be nothing without the strong and and influential women and […]